Like honestly? HONESTLY. i can’t do this. I’ve been trying to do insanity my body wont do anything, I am pushing my self to go to the gym my body hates me, like it just wont work. nothing is working, not clean eating, not working out, not anything. I’m tired. I’m tried of having PCOS fuck my life over. but there isn’t anything I can do about it. i hate my body i hate the way i look. i shouldn’t look like this, 3 years ago i didn’t look like this! this fucking syndrome hormonal imbalance has fuck up my life royally. 

I have the WORST acid reflux to the point that my stomach specialist wants to do a surgery, but i can’t get it done unless i lose 40lbs because i’m to fucking big! REALLY?! I wanted to get the lapband just to get that extra help, that push. oh nopes sorry who has $16,000 just waiting around? i’m worn down, and tired. do i have health insurance nope not any that will cover it. can i get a loan for it, nope to big of a loan plus i’d have to have a JOB to pay that back. yeahhhh this city is crap i can’t find work here at all. I can’t start my own business up because well that needs money. ugh! honestly just wanna lay in bed and just not get out of it for days.  

oh and i’ve been on my period for 8months straight, bet that! the flow is forever heavy and i’ve spent more then $300 bucks on pads, and tampons. like I dunno does anyone out there know what i’m going through? does anyone really even care at this point.

no- okay thought so.

healthyalexandria:

helloconfidence-goodbyefatass:

My birthday is in a couple weeks, and I’ll be 26. Most people I follow are much younger than 20, and while these guys are all awesome, it would be nice to follow people closer to my age as well (if there are any out there lol) :p

*must be 20 years of age or older, and must have a healthy weight loss blog that posts more than just photo after photo of skinny/fit girls!

I am 21.

i’m 27 

well i didn’t get the job, and I was pretty bummed out about it. But I’m telling my self that there is something better waiting for me. also this gives me time to really focus on my health and even starting up my photography business.

so starting tomorrow i’ll be starting insanity… I’m both excited, nervous, and scared. I’m hoping my body doesn’t give up on me. but it’s a new day tomorrow and im ready to shade the 40lbs i want to lose this summer, then i’ll only have 60lbs more to left to lose by February.

flatabsandthighgaps:

Insanity is a workout/weight-loss program. It’s 60 days of cardio madness, that will lead you to love the instructor, as well as hate him, all at the same time.

It’s led by fitness provocateur, Shaun T, and he takes you through 14 different exercises designed to burn fat like mad. He does mostly Interval Training, that is, a blast of cardio, followed by a rest, followed by an even bigger blast.

The calendar will show you what exercises to do on which days. In the beginning, you’ll do a fit test in which you’ll see how many of each exercise you can do. Have a pen and paper ready to write down your results! Then, you’ll delve into the exercises according to the calendar. Every two weeks, you’ll take the fit test again, hopefully improving your numbers each time. 

Insanity is one of the most intense workout programs you will ever do, but it’s worth it. You may thinking it’s “just too hard!” in the beginning, but from personal experience, I can honestly say you get stronger. Give it a try! 

Insanity Calendar

Insanity Meal Guide

1. Fit Test

2: Plyometric Cardio Circuit

3: Cardio Power & Resistance

4: Cardio Recovery

5: Pure Cardio & Cardio Abs

6: Core Cardio & Balance

7: Max Interval Circuit 

8: Max Interval Plyo

9: Max Cardio Conditioning & Cardio Abs

10: Max Interval Sports Training

11: Upper Body Weight Training

12: Max Recovery

13: Insane Abs

Reblog so others can have this, and if you’d like me to send these links to you in a message, hit up my ask box and let me know, and I’ll reply with these links. This way, you’ll have them safely tucked away in your inbox, instead of having to go through likes or reblogs to find it. 

I wish you luck!:)